Day 41

Knock knock. Who’s there?

:It’s me. 

Who are you?

:It’s me. Hafizha.

Hafizha who?

:Nur hafizha bte husini.

What makes you here?

:To see you. I miss you boy.  

Day 40

Hello bloggers. 

Well boofy boofy hoomy. Don’t ask me what was that. Because Im not going to answer you. Well, the truth is, me myself also have no idea wth is the “boofy boofy hoomy” meaning. I just feel like saying it. On my previous post which is day 39^th, I did promise you that I will write something big. I mean I will write something that is much better than my previous post. Somehow, I can’t think of any. I have no choice but to let u guys down and I’m not surprised if I lost a bunch of followers. Can I write anything that I like today? Without bothering / minding / care what will you guys say and talk about me? Can I? Well, I take that as a YES. 

I came from a very ordinary family which is I'm lucky num 4. I have a very awesome sisters and brothers. Cut the sisters. More to sister. 

You know sometimes life can be super duper hard and that is the moment when you need someone to be with you. Well, I do have some good friends, bff and a bunch of good listeners. Anyhow they still can’t fill the emptiness inside you. For the past few months, I’ve been having a very hard time dealing with the broke up stuffs. Yes. It hurts me a lot and I can’t even bare to stand the pain. I texted all my friends, telling them how I felt and still, they can't made my day. Then I managed to find guts in me to tell my sis and my bro about what had happened. Surprisingly, even though they didn’t talk to me as nice as my friend did, they say all the harsh word to me, I feel much better and that was the time when I finally realized “yes, they are right. I shouldn’t live my life’s all the way like this just because a boy that can’t take a good care of me” and absolutely, they will always support me and be by my side doesn’t matter what is the condition. That is why I love them the most & of course I miss them so much. How I wish we can gathering like how we used to be before. 

I started working since February and when I received my salary I was beyond excitement. Since then, I started to buy foods for my fam members and that making me feel so old. I’m just 17^th. Well, turning 18^th soon, I’m still a teenager but hey I’m no longer a kiddo who used to have big ribbons on the pony tails and playing with Barbie’s and begging for abah n mummy to buy me Barbie house. Time flies without you knowing it. And my heart tinged with sadness when I recalled and reminiscing about my childhood past.  

Somehow, I am now a happy girl too because I have such a wonderful people around me. I have a great parents who always love and accept me in any way I am, I have a wonderful siblings who will always be there for me, I have a lot of good friends that will always support me upside down and most importantly I have a great wonderful blessed boyfriend that care and love me so much. I’m so happy to be with him and I know he will take a good care of me and my heart as well. Because I will do the same too. i love u Nizar.

Am so relieved that Allah had sent them to me. 

Thank you Allah for giving me strength and hope to live my lives when I’m not in a good condition and when I feel so down and doesn’t feel there is any way and hope.  

Thank you so much Allah. 

The end.

Day 39

dear bloggers,

Well,just another boring post today. im so sleepy but im waitin for my beloved boyfie to get home. its raining. i hope his doin fine.
Tonight,im so in mood to talk bout something. well, just now i went to youtube and search for "lady gaga-born this way music video".
& when i saw the video i was like -.-. yes seriously i was like -.-
wthell was that? okay im sorry.i didn't mean to insult lady gaga and so on but dude the music video is real damn scaryy! and im scared. i have no intention to insult lady gaga but she is really scary. she is really into satanism and so on. well i dont want to say much as many of people around me like her so damn much. i love her gaga-ness but apparently not the music video. and most of people in youtube who commented on her music video will translate the real meaning of the song! such as "Alejandro" songs. OKAY. since i was there to hear and saw the video's,its not wrong for me to check out what some other people in some other place say about her. RIGHT? this is the biggest mistake ever. i will never check out lady gaga music video's again.


p/s:
when she dance with those bra stuffs, sik sakit kah nenen nya begoyang2? #JUSTASKING

i promised u i will write something BIG and more better for my 40th post.
if and if only if u want 2

Day 38

Dear bloggers.

and so today im in mood to actually update my blog and talk about something. let me keep this thing straight before u dare to talk shit or comment or ranting about my writings. basically,im not good in english. imma sucker. I KNOW RIGHT! ignore those grammatically error and so on. just live ur life.

before i start, i would like to say thank you so much to my 29th followers. u rock my world rocksetar! *hugs*

the reason im here today because something bad epen yesterday. more likely something that is so not cool and sometimes people take our feeling for granted and sometimes orang tok tengok kita segek mata jak. bukan iluminati!
bak kata pepatah omputeh "dont judge a book by its cover". time aku gik biak-biak dolok, rasa terer lah pake pepatah ya tek. padahal dah makin besa banyak gik duhal pepatah-pepatah nok awesome gik dari ya. lame. (L)

apa rasa torang kalau torang sikda buat salah di anok? di tudoh? mesti torang akan rasa macam tok kan?

• eh apahal kw tok? 
• cibai juakk
• jahanam
• bah taik na
• caken
• dan seanggota dengan beberapa ayat sumpah seranah yang lain

sebab torang bebena sikda buat salah,tapi orang tudoh2 kita. dahya tek kalau dah nya salah,nya terus macam mok manipulate cerita tek. madah kita gik salah pa suma. yala,nang da dalam dirik kita rasa kita jak betol,tapi sik la kita akan madah kita betol kalau dah mantak-mantak benda ya kita salah kan? mun aku salah,ngakuk aku salah aku. tok nang antap alu nya salah. sik la aku maoh di salah tegal benda bodo nok nya pasan kedirik ya. itok jak sik rasa kita bah.

haaa. macam ya lah cita aku tek.

Day 37

hello bloggers! 

thanks for following my 28th followers. *claps*

let me tell u hows life so far. im doin fine. excellent. and im madly in love with my own bff. and even till today he is my bff and also my bf. aku malas nak cakap banyak pasal gerek aku lah. better aku rant about something aritok.

aku malas la nak anok sapa-sapa dalam post aku. hanya sekadar ucapan sepatah duak ayat. malas nak molah drama melayu terhebat juak. hahaha.penah ada ex? i mean ex bf ka ex gf ka. apa-apa jak la. ex wife,ex husband,ex daughter,ex sister in law,ex this ex that .

some people sik happy koh bila apa-apa benda nok di panggil ex tok macam dah ada pengganti. idk, dah nama ex,apahal maseh nak gago? maseh sayang ka apa ya soal no. 2 lah. my love life's before to totally fucked up and banyak juak aku belajar dari kisah lampau ya. malas nak nunding jari ngan mana-mana pihak. sapa salah ya malas nak di soal gik lah. maybe ada orang kata

"cepat na hafizha tok carik bf baru,padahal previous relationship mok dekat 4 tahun,tapi within 3 months genap break udah ada someone new"

let me tell u something that u shud know.
i will only in a proper relationship if

• ex aku dah ada orang baru
• my ex is actually dah moving on
• aku pun gerek baru ya orang aku dah kenal lamak
• i can rely on him
• can be trusted
• respect my fam
• he can be my bff and also my bf at the same time

malas nak cakap banyak lah, kadang-kadang orang tok padah kita ya tok ya la. okay, ure right about how much i ever love and willing to wait for him last time. tapi kalau orang dah ada someone new sik kan kita jadi bodo mok betunggu? and yet kita tok jak mala salah and kita tok lah nok jaik lam hubungan ya. mesti la asa kedak NO WAY. I SHALL MOVE ON. aku malas nak puji dirik ka apa, aku malas nak anok sapa-sapa juak. again aku ketat kan benda ya. because aku tok setia. even orang ya dah break ngan aku, aku sik akan carik pengganti dolok selagik nya belom ada carik pengganti. aku akan tunggu tunggu and tunggu.

bila aku dah happy macamtok,datang gik orang lua nok sik pande puas2 sik pande nak nerimak kenyataan nok ex nya kinek dah ada orang pun. aku malas nak kata banyak juak gik la. yang pasti, aku sikda rampas mana-mana bf orang and zac is positive-ly single.

kaktok,ada lah orang sebar-sebar blog aku suroh baca.

LOOK,HAFIZHA SINDE BLA BLA BLAAAAAAA....

makseh. ne tauk kelak kelak blog aku di promote.

chow!

Day 36

hello bitches! so guess what?

i got 3 A's 4 B's and 2 C's. 

setimpal la ngan usaha super last minute aku. hahahahaa. who cares. but i fucked up my Geo paper. sedeh juak la because sik sangka kan aku dapat C for geo. :( nyesal aku nanis-nanis buat paper ya oi! dahla time ya baruk break ngan ex aku kan, dahya aku mala terfikir-fikir gik.tapi,benda dah lalu. apa boleh buat. keep it shut jak la. hahahaha. janji ada A! :)

lamak-lamak tok,otak aku makin bertega eh. sikda cita aku maok rant or so whatever kinek. so, maybe next time.

love u till i die bitches,
xx

Day 35

agak2 lamak juak dah aku sik update blog. dalam masa yang sama juak, aku esok tunggu result aku. esok kuar result spm. and im very lah nervous. :)

i cant talk much due to the nervoustism. haha. goodbye!